Read My Story

I am here to share my story.

I suffered from CFS for about 15 years, since the age of 14. I had all the usual symptoms: extreme exhaustion, brain-fog, inability to concentrate, difficulties with short-term memory, irritability, noise intolerance, depression, recurring viruses and infections… The most severe of these symptoms were fatigue and brain-fog because these hindered my functioning the most. Sometimes the symptoms were worse than at other times, but I rarely felt good. I could sleep for 15 hours a day, but still felt exhausted. No amount of sleep could make me feel good. In fact, there was almost nothing that could make me feel good. And I had no idea what was going on with me. The fatigue and brain-fog would only cease for a couple of hours in the evenings, but most of the time I felt really bad. Brain-fog assaulted me in the most unexpected situations, but especially, as I later discovered by making notes, symptoms increased while reading, working on computer, talking to people, and shopping. Symptoms made these activities impossible or totally inefficient, but I still had to cope with my life as other people did because I was not officially “sick.” Although I was suffering from debilitating symptoms, I did not know the diagnosis and did not even know Chronic Fatigue Syndrome existed. The doctors I visited did not have a clue what was wrong with me and suggested that everything was fine and gave me the usual sermon: “Get more sleep, exercise more, work less and avoid cigarettes and alcohol.” But all of these bits of good advice did not improve my condition, so I started to look for other ways to make myself feel better. I visited healers, took ginseng pills and herbal mixtures, did a lot of fasting, and tried a few other alternative methods, but none of them had a lasting effect. Having tried all the methods available to me at the time, I was still at a loss as to what was wrong with me and what I should do. But there was nothing I could do, so I led a seemingly happy and successful life while suffering with severe debilitating symptoms and being hardly able to work and study. Not knowing what was wrong with me and not telling other people what I felt forced me into a kind of double-standard mode: I had to pretend that everything was alright while I was actually very far from being “alright.” I still managed to finish school, go traveling and graduate from university, but it took an enormous effort to accomplish these things and I`m sure I would have done better had I not been affected by CFS. I wanted to live a normal life, so I did my best. Knowing my diagnosis would have made it a little easier to bear, for then at least I would have had an excuse for not being able to live a full life. From the outside I was well and happy while working, studying, going out, drinking with friends and doing other things, but inside I felt like a zombie. I told my closest friends and family members what was actually going on, but no one could truly understand or help.
In 2005 I finally found out that there is such a thing as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. The second thing I learned was that there is no cure. But I didn´t believe it and started to look for a solution immediately. I found Reverse Therapy and decided to use its principles to regain my health.

If you are a sufferer, the above definitely sounds familiar to you. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is a hellish condition that can mean partial or total disability for years. A lot of people suffer for decades and never recover, and there is no official solution to the problem. However, a lot of people, including myself, have recovered, and so recovery from CFS is definitely possible. I do not claim to have the answer, but I have written about my experience anyway, because it might be useful to other people going through same kind of suffering.

Read about my recovering story and more in my e-book “A Manual For Dealing With CFS”

Feel free to contact me by e-mail with any questions or comments:

E-mail: leharik[at]gmail.com